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i have lied, on multiple occasions.. i do the little white lie to my mom about homework now and then and then the ones to my friends about “feelings” for the opposite sex…i guess at times i am too scared to admit to really being myself in that case.. i dont really know why i tell the little lies, they always come back!
unfortunately there is one lie that is the worst of all that i have told…a long time ago i had a boyfriend… wow this is harder then i thought… and we did some things that were NOT God centered, this was prior to coming to my faith and realizing that God loves me and so on … anyway … we were in “love”, i was starting to go to church and he was no where close to being a Christian… and i didnt care… we broke up .. and i fell apart and my family kept asking if i had sex with him because they couldnt see or understand why i was soo upset, so i told them what we did.. most of it.. and they just were blank, and then i was just looked at and i felt the judgements being made and i dont know i guess in that moment of pressure i snapped! i said that what we had done i didnt want to do, that it was him pressuring me and not listening when and if i said no and then i just didnt want to fight it cuz i didnt want to loose him… i told this horrible lie turning the guy i once cared so much about into a sexual abuser to my family who already did not like him as is… i feel sooo awefule.. i mean we r not in contact anymore but my mom thinks of him as a “rapist” in a sence and when i tried to explain it and kind of come clean she just wouldnt listen .. so now i just live with this lie in the darkness and i pray nearly every night for forgivness not only for my impure actions i took part in but also for the lie that i told. That secret has not gotten back to him and the only ones who know are those reading this and my family … so i am blessed in that case… im just hoping i can be forgiven by God
once years and years ago when i went shopping with my mom i wanted to buy something i didnt have enough money for so i went and i stole money from my parents and when my mom asked me if i had i said “no” i claimed i had saved it. i feel bad cuz you shouldnt lie to parents and i did. and i have asked for forgiveness but i dont know if it has come yet though i have forgiven myself. im still ashamed though
Ok this is my confession. Since I was 5 my brothers were never around. They were either in jail, or had there own families. Well I grew up with my sisters, and I had no male figure in my life, except for my dad, but he had to go to work at 2pm and came home at 11:30pm, so I actually never had that male figure around me. So I guess while I was growing up with my sisters I became a little feminine. Yes i know how to brade hair, and stuff like that, because my sisters tought me. They had me do it for them. Well my brothers got wind of me doing that, and so they started to call me gay. Come on now, I was only 5, and they were in there 20s and 30s. How mature were they? So being the little child I was, I got my feelings hurt. I never told my parents that they would call me gay, fag, homo. Maybe I should have, but thats not the point. Growing up my whole life with them teasing me, wasnt pleasant. Then there kids my (nephews, and nieces) heard them calling me names, so they thought that it was ok too. My brothers were so mest up they would turn on PORN at their house while I was there, just to see if I would watch it. So I got addicted. I started watching porn when I was 8, and I was in very deep. I used to print out the pics, and put them in a binder. I ended up showing my nephew he told his dad which is my brother, who told my dad. Yeah I got caught. But didnt get in trouble. Well entering middle school kids are so dumb and inmature. So they called me names and teased me also. You FAG, what a GAYLORD. You know what I would do? Blow it off of my shoulder. Yeah I had girlfriends in middle school. A lot but that didnt matter, kids will be kids. So while entering in to high school, actually the summer right before nineth grade, parkcrest through a grade party at one of the leaders houses. Well I went to that party it was fun until we started playing Halo. I got mad and said that I suck. Well the lead made an bad inuendo. He said “Well why dont you grab my controller and start sucking.” I was just in shock that a christian leader would say such a thing. Yes i know he was joking, but that was so uncalled for. Well going into nineth grade, I had a friend. He was so cool. But then one night he called me and was telling me that he was gay, and that he had these fantasies for me and one of my other friends. I hung up, and stopped being his friend. Mean while me brothers, and their kids are still teasing me, and calling me names, and still are putting on porn at there house. Not only were they doing that they, were telling me all of their stories about having sex, with all of these different girls. I would pay attention, but just to have them shut up later. Back at school, after the incident with that guy, I started to question my orientation. I was wondering, what is making me seem gay? What is making guys attracted to me? So I started to get tired of straight porn, because I saw everything that needed to be seen. So I went on the computer, and typed in GAY PORN. I sort of liked it. It was something new, something that I have never seen before. Well I got addicted to gay porn. Going into 10th grade I got caught by my parents. I never knew how to delete the history on the computer so that is how they found out. They sat me down and asked me if i was watching porn, but not only porn gay porn. I said “Hell NO, what made you think that? What on earth!” They said that they found gay porn in the history of the computer. Well i ended up convincing them that it was a virus, and they believed me. That is my lie that I have been wanting to confess. That I have been addicted to porn, and that I lied to my parents about it. Well it doesnt end there. I have been addicted to porn since I was 8, and i am turning 18 soon. I have been addicted to gay porn since I was 14. Well i was talking to one of my gay friends at school and I was asking him his life story, and then I told him what I was doing, and then he asked me if I wanted to experience. And I said sure. So he came over one night that my parents werent home, and we had sex. Yes I know that God does not agree with same-sex. But i needed to know for myself to see if I was gay. I ended up not liking it. I told my friend that it felt like I was acting the whole time. He said that I probably think that sex is over-rated, but I said no i just didnt enjoy it. He told me that i need to have sex with a girl now to see which one is better. Well after talking with him, I ended up talking to this guy from a show, and he is gay, and we attracted to each other. So one night I lied to my parents saying that I was going to my firends house for a party, but I really went over to the guys house to have sex with him. Now this time i liked it. I AM SO SCREWED UP! I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I have lost my connection with God. I finally convinced myself that I am BI. I have been wanting to tell my parents, and family. I told my bestfriends and they are totally fine with me being bi. I blam my brothers for me being bi. Because if they never called me names, then I probably would turn out this way. I am a shamed of being bi. But i guess it is who I am. I am dating this girl, she is a very hard christian, but she doesnt know yet. I guess this is just a way of me comming out. I lied to my parents my friends, and family, and I have lied to myself. I need God. I am also a shamed of who I am, and what I have become. But i know one thing. I do believe that God put me down this path for a reason. I believe that he wants me to learn something. So i guess that is it. I have confessed. Please who ever reads this please pray for me to find my way back to God. Thank you.
I go to church every Sunday, because my parents force me to go to church. I don’t believe in God. I am constantly filled with anger. The only way i know how to cope with my anger, is by cutting myself, drinking alcohol, or smoking marijuana.
I lied at Gravity. When someone asked me if I had been eating the whole week and I said yes. But it was a lie. I didn’t want drama and people to be worried about me, because its not worth it. But, I got it anyways. I didn’t eat that whole week and I threw up the day we had to leave. That’s what I got for not telling the truth and not eating. And I know I shouldn’t have done it but I couldn’t help myself. I just didn’t want people to judge me. That’s all.
January 8, 2008 at 11:15 pm
i have lied, on multiple occasions.. i do the little white lie to my mom about homework now and then and then the ones to my friends about “feelings” for the opposite sex…i guess at times i am too scared to admit to really being myself in that case.. i dont really know why i tell the little lies, they always come back!
unfortunately there is one lie that is the worst of all that i have told…a long time ago i had a boyfriend… wow this is harder then i thought… and we did some things that were NOT God centered, this was prior to coming to my faith and realizing that God loves me and so on … anyway … we were in “love”, i was starting to go to church and he was no where close to being a Christian… and i didnt care… we broke up .. and i fell apart and my family kept asking if i had sex with him because they couldnt see or understand why i was soo upset, so i told them what we did.. most of it.. and they just were blank, and then i was just looked at and i felt the judgements being made and i dont know i guess in that moment of pressure i snapped! i said that what we had done i didnt want to do, that it was him pressuring me and not listening when and if i said no and then i just didnt want to fight it cuz i didnt want to loose him… i told this horrible lie turning the guy i once cared so much about into a sexual abuser to my family who already did not like him as is… i feel sooo awefule.. i mean we r not in contact anymore but my mom thinks of him as a “rapist” in a sence and when i tried to explain it and kind of come clean she just wouldnt listen .. so now i just live with this lie in the darkness and i pray nearly every night for forgivness not only for my impure actions i took part in but also for the lie that i told. That secret has not gotten back to him and the only ones who know are those reading this and my family … so i am blessed in that case… im just hoping i can be forgiven by God
January 8, 2008 at 11:17 pm
once years and years ago when i went shopping with my mom i wanted to buy something i didnt have enough money for so i went and i stole money from my parents and when my mom asked me if i had i said “no” i claimed i had saved it. i feel bad cuz you shouldnt lie to parents and i did. and i have asked for forgiveness but i dont know if it has come yet though i have forgiven myself. im still ashamed though
January 14, 2008 at 1:55 am
Ok this is my confession. Since I was 5 my brothers were never around. They were either in jail, or had there own families. Well I grew up with my sisters, and I had no male figure in my life, except for my dad, but he had to go to work at 2pm and came home at 11:30pm, so I actually never had that male figure around me. So I guess while I was growing up with my sisters I became a little feminine. Yes i know how to brade hair, and stuff like that, because my sisters tought me. They had me do it for them. Well my brothers got wind of me doing that, and so they started to call me gay. Come on now, I was only 5, and they were in there 20s and 30s. How mature were they? So being the little child I was, I got my feelings hurt. I never told my parents that they would call me gay, fag, homo. Maybe I should have, but thats not the point. Growing up my whole life with them teasing me, wasnt pleasant. Then there kids my (nephews, and nieces) heard them calling me names, so they thought that it was ok too. My brothers were so mest up they would turn on PORN at their house while I was there, just to see if I would watch it. So I got addicted. I started watching porn when I was 8, and I was in very deep. I used to print out the pics, and put them in a binder. I ended up showing my nephew he told his dad which is my brother, who told my dad. Yeah I got caught. But didnt get in trouble. Well entering middle school kids are so dumb and inmature. So they called me names and teased me also. You FAG, what a GAYLORD. You know what I would do? Blow it off of my shoulder. Yeah I had girlfriends in middle school. A lot but that didnt matter, kids will be kids. So while entering in to high school, actually the summer right before nineth grade, parkcrest through a grade party at one of the leaders houses. Well I went to that party it was fun until we started playing Halo. I got mad and said that I suck. Well the lead made an bad inuendo. He said “Well why dont you grab my controller and start sucking.” I was just in shock that a christian leader would say such a thing. Yes i know he was joking, but that was so uncalled for. Well going into nineth grade, I had a friend. He was so cool. But then one night he called me and was telling me that he was gay, and that he had these fantasies for me and one of my other friends. I hung up, and stopped being his friend. Mean while me brothers, and their kids are still teasing me, and calling me names, and still are putting on porn at there house. Not only were they doing that they, were telling me all of their stories about having sex, with all of these different girls. I would pay attention, but just to have them shut up later. Back at school, after the incident with that guy, I started to question my orientation. I was wondering, what is making me seem gay? What is making guys attracted to me? So I started to get tired of straight porn, because I saw everything that needed to be seen. So I went on the computer, and typed in GAY PORN. I sort of liked it. It was something new, something that I have never seen before. Well I got addicted to gay porn. Going into 10th grade I got caught by my parents. I never knew how to delete the history on the computer so that is how they found out. They sat me down and asked me if i was watching porn, but not only porn gay porn. I said “Hell NO, what made you think that? What on earth!” They said that they found gay porn in the history of the computer. Well i ended up convincing them that it was a virus, and they believed me. That is my lie that I have been wanting to confess. That I have been addicted to porn, and that I lied to my parents about it. Well it doesnt end there. I have been addicted to porn since I was 8, and i am turning 18 soon. I have been addicted to gay porn since I was 14. Well i was talking to one of my gay friends at school and I was asking him his life story, and then I told him what I was doing, and then he asked me if I wanted to experience. And I said sure. So he came over one night that my parents werent home, and we had sex. Yes I know that God does not agree with same-sex. But i needed to know for myself to see if I was gay. I ended up not liking it. I told my friend that it felt like I was acting the whole time. He said that I probably think that sex is over-rated, but I said no i just didnt enjoy it. He told me that i need to have sex with a girl now to see which one is better. Well after talking with him, I ended up talking to this guy from a show, and he is gay, and we attracted to each other. So one night I lied to my parents saying that I was going to my firends house for a party, but I really went over to the guys house to have sex with him. Now this time i liked it. I AM SO SCREWED UP! I have no idea what I am doing with my life. I have lost my connection with God. I finally convinced myself that I am BI. I have been wanting to tell my parents, and family. I told my bestfriends and they are totally fine with me being bi. I blam my brothers for me being bi. Because if they never called me names, then I probably would turn out this way. I am a shamed of being bi. But i guess it is who I am. I am dating this girl, she is a very hard christian, but she doesnt know yet. I guess this is just a way of me comming out. I lied to my parents my friends, and family, and I have lied to myself. I need God. I am also a shamed of who I am, and what I have become. But i know one thing. I do believe that God put me down this path for a reason. I believe that he wants me to learn something. So i guess that is it. I have confessed. Please who ever reads this please pray for me to find my way back to God. Thank you.
January 15, 2008 at 12:21 am
im a girl and im attracted to girls but i also like boys. i dont understand how i can be bi. No one knows and i am scared.
please pray for me. i need God
January 15, 2008 at 1:21 am
I go to church every Sunday, because my parents force me to go to church. I don’t believe in God. I am constantly filled with anger. The only way i know how to cope with my anger, is by cutting myself, drinking alcohol, or smoking marijuana.
January 17, 2008 at 6:21 am
I lied at Gravity. When someone asked me if I had been eating the whole week and I said yes. But it was a lie. I didn’t want drama and people to be worried about me, because its not worth it. But, I got it anyways. I didn’t eat that whole week and I threw up the day we had to leave. That’s what I got for not telling the truth and not eating. And I know I shouldn’t have done it but I couldn’t help myself. I just didn’t want people to judge me. That’s all.